I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I feel so in love with Josh
and so fucking alone.
I feel so together with Josh
and so fucking lonely.
I feel like everything is perfect with Josh
but by myself I am a mess.
And a pathetic mess at that.
I am happy... I think.
But I've turned into onion girl,
and my happiness is underneath all of these layers of loneliness.
Yesterday was fucking PERFECT.
It was amazing.
I am so happy that yesterday didn't blow up.
And Josh and I are doing something for V-Day,
which I'm really excited about.
Cause I have a plan type thing.
I guess I just miss him,
after having his arms around me all day yesterday.
I guess I just need a hug.
I'm sorry for being so emo.