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I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I feel so in love… 
4th-Feb-2007 09:56 pm
Blonde Girl In Headlights
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

I feel so in love with Josh
and so fucking alone.

I feel so together with Josh
and so fucking lonely.

I feel like everything is perfect with Josh
but by myself I am a mess.
And a pathetic mess at that.

I am happy... I think.
But I've turned into onion girl,
and my happiness is underneath all of these layers of loneliness.

Yesterday was fucking PERFECT.
It was amazing.
I am so happy that yesterday didn't blow up.

And Josh and I are doing something for V-Day,
which I'm really excited about.
Cause I have a plan type thing.

I guess I just miss him,
after having his arms around me all day yesterday.

I guess I just need a hug.

I'm sorry for being so emo.

Jill XOXO
Comments 
5th-Feb-2007 03:20 am (UTC)
One thing drives me nuts about this term of "emo". I have to say that from what I understand that term to be is a person who views their life as meaningless and empty and crap like that. I know I might sound sappy in fact that'd be a better term other than emo, but if you actually want someone and not wanting to feel alone, that's what I like to call "human". There's nothing wrong with wanting something like that in my mind. Most people I know including myself are afraid to say how we feel towards another in terms of love or what have you, simply because we'll be tagged "emo" and frowned upon. If anything Jill, I encourage that kinda thing that you're talking about because it brings a closer bond between the two involved. I just wish people would stop using that damn term because it makes people afraid to say what they mean. I'll say "I love Lace" and be called emo and all I want to do it crack that person in the face because I can't stand that term. My point anyway is say what you want and people shouldn't feel afraid to say what they want. it's what makes us who we all are. Sorry if this is too sappy.
5th-Feb-2007 11:59 am (UTC)
I can see where you're coming from....
Or rather, the point you're trying to get across.
But even though I love Josh more than anything in the world
this post is pretty much me being a mess of emotions
therefore: emo (emotional)

Anyways,
I don't think I agree with your comment completely,
but there are parts I agree with.
5th-Feb-2007 03:24 am (UTC)
Anonymous
I'd hug you, because I feel exactly the same, but boy hugs and girl hugs are different, and one cannot substitute for the other. I know this. I'm emo too. Let's be emo together, and look exactly the same... eerie... Tomorrow will be great and terrible. Like the Wizard of Oz. For I am OZ, the Great and Terrible.
Love, <3 Ambery
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